Eyes and Mouth

It was easy, it was like you were all the things I ever dreamed of. Your thoughts, mostly. But just like all the fuck boys in this world would be, I’m just a naive girl with seaming-less experience about anything according to your species. I was afraid, really. I was the one who made you wait, to made you ask any question that crossed in your mind. You were just, an eagle, and turns out I’m just a target 1 from thousands you might have, baby. I don’t know why do your recklessness was the one that attract me. Maybe I’m just a girl who used to fix and rotated into broken pieces. Just, like your heart and mental.

I was broken but loaded with hope, at least from you. I was secretly missing in my world, and there you were seems trying to took me from the deep hole that I made for myself. But, once again. It was imaginary.. you were never intended to saving me, but saving your curiosity about, me. The harder things is to make me realise that it was true. My mouth slipped, and you let me go. away.. and way… to far from your thoughts. Oh dear, how I loved it.

The crazy things that made me stay was, dreams. I was dreaming about you, I was dreaming about us.. having future, with our mom inside. It was more than just you and me. Whenever I planned to text you, you were the one who talk, first. I thought it was connection. Yet, again.. it was just you being jerk. It was surreal, you were the surprise and I thought I could touch and talk to you even before I met you. You are beautiful, trust me. Please, don’t hurt yourself anymore. Please, love you like I was planning to love you every single day from the day I trusted you… until somehow, you decided to break it.

I was so clumsy, using all my instinct and heart between whatever we had. But I will never regret it, I was honest, I was pure to be there for you and asking you about your day. While you were playing with whatever I thought was love. You are so modern, but my heart is old fashioned. I was being reckless, I was never made it easy for anyone, but for you. and.. I was crazy, to trust you with everything I thought you were ready for.

we were water, we flow like it was perfect.

But now, I’m afraid I have to go. Letting myself free from anything about concept of you, us, me who loving you completely.